Monday, April 20, 2009

mosses monday XXV...

i think, in my heart, i knew that when i kissed mrs. moss "goodbye" that day, it was for the last time...

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when the phone rings before dawn, it is rarely a good thing; but it rang very early that summer morning all the same...

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i answered.

"dani, this is jean. mr. moss wanted me to call and let you know that mrs. moss passed away during the night, sweetie."

"oh," i felt my heart sinking.
"is mr. moss alright; is there anything i can do?"

"he's alright, dani," she responded.
"he's just waiting for his secretary and lawyer to get here so that the two can take care of all the funeral arrangements."

"jean, will you please tell him that i love him,"
my voice broke.
"oh, and jean, thank you for letting me know."

i held the phone receiver in my lap and just sat there with tears streaming down my face. i knew mrs. moss was in a much better place. but, my heart was breaking all the same. it was a huge step for mr. moss to have to institutionalize mrs. moss; i was afraid this was just going to be too much for him.

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after a bit, i placed the receiver back on its cradle, washed my face and brushed my teeth and hair, and dressed. i woke up katherine and got her ready for the day, and we headed down to the moss' court.

when i pulled into the drive i found jean sitting outside the backdoor reading the newspaper. she arose and walked over to greet me at my van. i got out of the van, and we hugged. i told her i was really worried about mr. moss. she assured me he was doing fine but that he was bathing and shaving.

(with moss' parkinson's disease, it usually took him a couple of hours to get ready each morning. given that he had recently broken several of his vertebrae, it was taking him even longer to do so.)

i didn't want to interrupt him.

so, jean and i just stood in the drive and talked. she described the events of the night prior and assured me that mrs. moss hadn't suffered... rather, she'd just died in her sleep.

i was so thankful she hadn't suffered;
she'd already suffered emotionally more than her fair share!

after talking to jean for a bit, i got back into my van and very slowly drove up and around the moss' circular drive. as i did so, i took special notice of the flower gardens... my last conversation with mrs. moss had been about her beloved geraniums, petunias, rhodi's, and azaleas...

as i was circling, a feeling of joy overtook me...
i had a sense she was looking down upon the flowers...
and enjoying them with me!!!

the way she always did before alzheimer's took her away from us...

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(to be continued...)

love and God's blessings,
dani xx

ps you will find earlier entries in ascending order on my side bar entitled, "our love story":)

11 comments:

Cheri and Jesse said...

I also believe that she was looking down enjoying the flowers with you.

Hugs!

Cheri

Sally said...

I believe it also, Dani. We each have those special moments that we know are meant just for us. ((hugs))

linda said...

I didn't even know Mrs. Moss but I'm crying just the same. What a treasure she was!

Not only was she surrounding herself with you that day but she probably has on many many more occasions as well. I'm sure you can feel her presence at times even now.

Amanda said...

I'm glad that she passed peacefully ~ as you wrote, she had already been through so much.

And poor Mr Moss ~ how heartbreaking for him. He is such a lovely gentleman. I wish that i had the pleasure of knowing them both.

Love,
Amanda x

Tabitha said...

Although this was how I was expecting the story to go ~ I am still sat here with tears in my eyes.
It is so sad when we lose someone who is so special to us.
I too believe that Mrs Moss was right there with you ~ and still is.
Love and hugs dear Dani ~ XXXXXX

SuzanSayz said...

How sad this must have been for you and Katherine. At least you know that you were both blessed for having had her in your lives for so long.

Vanessa Tuau said...

A beautiful, moving story - thank you for sharing:) Vanessa (Australia) xxxxx....x

Lisa@verybusymomwith4 said...

I believe she is looking down right now and smiling as you share her story with us. You are so blessed to have had her in your life :)

Do you have this in pink? said...

Dani,

your ongoing story moves me everytime I read it. When you hear stories about a husband or wife passing away in a young couple it's tragic. But when I hear about couples who have been together for so long they can't remember ever being apart and one of them passes it hurts me even more. I know that sounds crazy but to loose your partner young there is hope you can rebuild your life given time and with loving friends around you. But to be so old and then find that person you have been with forever leaves it must be heartbreaking.

Tanya said...

Their story is just so moving & BEAUTIFUL!!! Dani thank you so much for sharing their story with us! Even though these entries make me cry.. I'm so grateful to you for sharing the "Love Story" of the century!

Take care,

love, Tanya xxx

Little Sweethearts said...

Even though I saw this story coming it still gives me goosebumps. You were blessed meeting the Mosses.

Love and hugs,
Tania