Friday, May 31, 2013

flashback friday (daisy, daisy)...

"give me your answer do!
I'm half crazy..."

"half crazy" is probably an underestimate of myself!!!

on my 31st birthday (2000), i left work, got in my van, and went shopping for my birthday present from me to me:b third store was a charm:D there she was all shiny, black, and new...
daisy, daisy, my bicycle built for two!!!

looking back, who knows??? i guess it was an early mid-life crisis or something. i purchased her, and the guys at the cyclery somehow got the rather large bicycle into my van:O i do remember driving across the bridge home with her front tire next to me wedged between the front seats. it was so unsafe; i was SO excited:D

when i said in my previous post that i have ridden my tanDAMN 5 times and hurt myself 5 times, i think i exaggerated...

that i recall, i HAVE only ridden her 5 times, but i only really hurt myself 2 of those times... the other three trips were just near misses, lol!!!

i made it home safely with my bike in tow. i quickly changed clothes, helmetted up, lugged the monster bike (it was at this point that i realized how heavy my new mode of transportation was:S), and hopped on for my first ride...

uh-oh (1st near miss), i wasn't quite tall enough to ride in the front safely. but, i was so excited i jumped on anyway, and off i went to find someone taller than me to drive.

SECOND TRIP (actually second leg of 1st trip):
six blocks later, i rode up to d's curb, used the curb to exit the bike;b, and ran in to get her. she was excited, too!!! she jumped on the front, i jumped on the back, and off we went around the block. this was my second 'near miss' as the back handle-bars nor the seat had been tightened in place. oops!!! i was hanging on for dear life, laughing, and, yes, screaming as we went over all the rooted cracks in the sidewalk at d's top speed:O

my trip home that day, my 31st b-day, was basically uneventful. THANK YOU, GOD, i lived to see that day come and go!!! other than the fact that i needed a curb on which to stop. i really should have tried that bike on before leaving the shop with it, no???

a week or so after (against my better judgment), katherine talked me into taking her for a ride on the aforementioned vehicular device. i waited until early evening so that the traffic would be light. i told her we would ride to d's, and she could play with will and sam while d and i took the bike for a ride (btw, john had tightened the back handle-bars and seat).

i dig that husband of mine!

 we got on and headed that way. guess what, we got a couple of blocks away, and i realized that katherine couldn't reach the pedals correctly. even though i told her just to rest her feet on the middle bar, half way there, she decided to just let her feet dangle and hit the back pedals as they rolled around... needless to say when i agreed to let her ride... 

"RIDE" she did!!! 

so, we finally made it to d's, curt was out edging the sidewalk, kat and i made a big U on the side street (tooooooooooooooo sloooooooooooooooooowly)... i didn't quite get over to the curb with enough speed. so, instead of getting off the bike the normal way, we fell over into the grass between the street and the sidewalk. 


hence, the first injury... i being the safety conscious mother i am, ha... purposefully took the brunt of the fall. katherine ran to the house without ever missing a beat. i was crying; i was laughing so hard!!! curt didn't know whether to get me a band aid or laugh with me... so, he just laughed.
d and i didn't go riding that night;( 

the only riding i did that night was hauling butts home to the "click", "click", "click"... of my precious 6 year-old's shoes hitting the rear pedals...

d talked me into riding the tanDAMN over to her house so that we could ride it downtown to the 'W. C. HANDY BLUES FESTIVAL'". the trip to her house was fine. she got on the front, and we headed to the festival. even that short ride was blissfully uneventful. 

we got off the bike and mingled. everybody was digging my bike. i live in a small town where everybody knows your name... (just a little bigger than the cheers bar); i was so proud of my shiny, new tandem:D 

ever heard, "pride cometh before the fall..."? or something like that...?

well, after a little "blues", a lemon shake-up (ky for "lemonade"), and home-town gossip, we decided to head home...  hence the second injury. d got on; and, instead of "1, 2, 3... PEDAL!!!", she started waving bye and took off with me running behind her instead of riding. 

no, i was not chasing the dana on the "other-may ucker-fay" (pardon my pig latin, please); i was straddling the rear bar and running with the pedals beating me in the backs of my calves.
omGOSH!!! we were the scene!!! 
w.c. handy, WHO???
i swear i thought i was going to wet myself!!!
 no, REALLY!!! 

as quickly as possible, we two d's... GOT THE HELL OUTTA DODGE (ky for "left rather quickly")!!!

the tandamn has been in my basement since... she still looks like brand-new. in ten years from now??? she'll probably still look like brand-new:D but with dry-rotted tires!!!


 love and blessings,

ps. i originally posted this 5 years ago.  the old girl has since been hanging upside down in my aunt's garage, a very good place for her!

Thursday, May 30, 2013

throwback thursday (the rescue)...

(destin, florida 1996)

recently on our way to florida,
katherine asked,
"what was that boy's name...
the one that saved me from drowning?"

"his first name was jacob,
and he was from new orleans.
that's all i know." 
i laughed,
"you are a dork, katherine!"

kat continued telling zack
the story of how she was "drowning",
and the boy "saved her life".

this throwback thursday
is dedicated to jacob.
for, if it weren't for 
his quick thinking
and actions,
our little katherine
might not be here with us today;)

love and God's blessings,
dani xxx

Monday, May 27, 2013

the dance... (happy birthday, gary!)

and now i'm glad i didn't know
 the way it all would end...
the way it all would go.


the night before gary's funeral, 
i crawled into bed with linda...
 as i didn't want her to be alone.
 linda was so exhausted.

 it wasn't long before she drifted off to sleep.
 i lay there in the darkness
carefully choosing my words
for i didn't want to disappoint linda,
and i most certainly
 didn't want to disappoint God!
 gary's story could tell itself.
but i promised linda i'd tell it
 and tell it well.

i thought to myself...
 losing someone is never easy,
but, man,
God has made our loss
as easy as He possibly could have.
it was if He has meticulously mapped out
 the way it all would go.

i still recall getting goosebumps
 when the words,
"God's timing is like a perfect dance,"
 came to my mind.


 our lives are better left to chance.
i could have missed the pain,
 but i'd of had to miss the dance.

by that time, linda was sleeping soundly.
i needed something to write with and paper!
 i quickly and quietly made my way out of bed
 and downstairs to where there were
 a pen, paper, a light, and my Bible.


 i couldn't get up and speak at gary's funeral
without using God's word!
what was i thinking?
so, i curled up on the couch
 and looked down at a closed Bible in my lap.
i had grabbed an ink pen and a small tablet
 from the dining room table.
on it, i wrote the word, "dance"

 then set it aside in order to find
supporting scripture.
  searching, i flipped through the pages...
i turned to the index for passages
 containing the terms,
 "timing" or "dance".


 then, i began to pray...

 thank you, God, for revealing yourself
 to us through gary.
 You have given me such a beautiful story to share.
 my words are not enough though;
i need Yours too...
suddenly, i felt God's presence
 all around me.

i heard Him ask,
"what brought you to this place?"

 the goosebumps i had earlier experienced
 were nothing compared to the ones
 popping up on my skin at that moment!
the hair on my arms was standing up straight,
 my chest was hot,
 and i could hear my heartbeat.

looking back on the memory 
of the dance we shared
beneath the stars above.


i opened my Bible
and flipped to the book of john.

"what about john, God?" i asked,
"i'm here, what now?"

"dani, you know," He answered.

 "i do?"


i thought...

 "11:11?" i questioned.

 "look. see." He responded.

 "after He had said this, He went on to tell them, 'our friend lazarus has fallen asleep; but I am going there to wake him up.'” (niv, john 11:11)

 all those months ago
 on the night gary asked me
 about my relationship with God,
 i shared with him the story of lazarus...
 i told him to place his faith in God
 and that regardless of how this all would end
 God would be with him,
 and it would be okay.
furthermore, i told him
 i didn't know what God was going to do
 but that i knew God was already doing something.

john 11:11..




  for a moment all the world was right.
how could i have known 
that you'd ever say goodbye?

gary's story had come full circle...
 the Alpha and the Omega
 He was there at the beginning of gary's journey.


but if i'd only known
how the king would fall,
who's to say, you know,
i might have changed it all.

 He was there at the end:
 "look, dani, look through the roof...

 "do you see it?" he asked me.

 there was silence. 
 the three of us turned our undivided
 attention to gary.

 i said, "what did you say, gary?!!?!"
 he repeated,

 "look through the roof, isn't it beautiful?"


i ripped the piece of paper
i'd been writing on
from the tablet, turned off all the lights,
and on wobbly knees made my way up the stairs,
back to bed.

honestly, i don't know how i slept...

for, i had been in HIS presence.
 HE had spoken to me.
 HE had shown HIS perfection,
 HIS plan...

to me?


as well,
 the timing of HIS latest revelation
 couldn't have been more perfect...

 the following morning i awoke
 a little later than the others.
 i went downstairs to the kitchen
 where i found linda
 with the same notepad and pen
 i'd used the night prior.

" mydani, this is how i want the service to go..."
she said and handed me the tablet.

 tears welled up in my eyes,
 then came the goosebumps,
 the standing hair on my arms,
 the hot chest,
the loud heartbeat,
 and i thought my knees were going
 to buckle beneath me.

 i handed my piece of paper to her.
 she saw and knew, too!!!


 unbeknownst to me until that very moment,
linda had decided to use garth brooks'
 the dance 
as the theme for gary's funeral.



 yes my life is better left to chance.
 i could have missed the pain, 
but i'd of had to miss the dance.

in loving memory of our gary,
 on his birthday...
 on this memorial day.

 love and God's blessings,
dani xxx

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

because i love him...

when john and i were dating
his sister often asked me,
"why are you dating him?'

my reply was always,
"because i love him."


i awoke this morning to john holding my hand.
before i was even awake,
my heart began to sing.
sometimes i have to pinch myself
so as to know i am not dreaming.

then i think,
God really gave him to me...

and i smile.


over the years
we have had issues
both through and around
which we have 
things have not always been 
thankfully though,
we never allowed the issues
to define us.



nearly 25 years ago
i went to john and expressed
my feelings for him.
john was a very guarded man.
he allowed me into his world-
into his heart.

God blessed me
with john.

make no mistake,
it was not the other way around.
i prayed to God
for him.

God answered my prayers.


john and i celebrated our 23rd
anniversary on saturday:

23 years together
because i love him
and he loves me


GOD loves us...

love and God's blessings,
dani xxx