"imitation is the sincerest form
of flattery."
-charles caleb colton
~@~
when maggie was growing up,
i often said
i would never be without
a cavalier in my life.
however,
as she grew older
and i started to realize
how hard it was going to be
to lose her and not have her
in my life,
i often said
i didn't think i could ever have
another...
it would just be
too
hard.
~@~
on friday, the day
after maggie went to heaven,
john and i talked
through our grief.
john: i just don't know
how people go out
and get another dog
after losing one.
me: i know.
i think if we got one now
i would feel guilty...
like i was replacing maggie.
john: i don't think that.
i just don't think
i could go through
this again.
we agreed.
~@~
then,
late saturday night
as i lay in bed,
the thought occurred to me...
maggie
would not want us
to be unhappy
like this
she spent her whole,
precious life
making us happy!
reactively,
i reached over
and grabbed my phone
from my nightstand.
i laid my phone
on my chest,
paused,
and took in a deep breath.
i held it
and
released it.
me: God, give me a sign
if i'm supposed to do this.
picking up my phone,
i pressed the home key,
touched the safari icon,
and
typed,
"cavalier puppies for sale
in kentucky."
i touched on the site
that popped up first.
the interactive site asked
if i were a buyer or a seller,
the breed
in which i was interested,
and, finally,
for my location.
~@~
at a glance,
i noticed there were only
a couple of pages of
cavies in our area.
i also noticed
most of the puppies
were blenheim
(tan and white).
i knew i wanted
either a mostly black tri-color
(black, tan, and white)
or
another black and tan
(with a little white)
like maggie.
as i scrolled down the page,
i saw her,
"blaze"!
my eyes filled with tears.
me: should i do this, God?
i knew there would be
no turning back!
i noticed her birthdate...
9/2.
maggie was an "11"
baby too.
i touched her picture
on my screen to enlarge it
and
read more about her.
she had the same marks
as my darling maggie,
and
she was a "cuddler".
ALL.the.signs.
were.there!
in my heart,
she was already mine.
God just reinforced
what i already knew.
after getting
meester berrong
on board,
i called the breeder,
and
we will pick up
our sweet baby mae~
formally known as
"Princess Margaret Mae
of the Lane".
-in just eleven days.
love and God's blessings,
dani xxx
