Tuesday, June 16, 2009

i want to go to a fat farm for just 4 days!!!

i haven't talked about weight for a while,
but it is something that really bothers me:(

i am ocd about only 2 things in my life...

my hygiene/bathing
my weight-food/FOOD!!!

ok, yes, i'm obsessed with hygiene therefore it is my compulsion to shower two or three times a day. (many of you already know this; some newer to my blog may not.) anyway, i don't see this being a big problem... as "cleanliness IS next to Godliness", right??? (i giggle as i type;) though, i do maybe use a bit more water and go through more shampoo and conditioner, soap, shaving cream, and razors than a person should. however, i feel so good... so refreshed after showering:)

you may wonder, "is her skin dry???" the answer is, "no. and i don't even use lotion that often." i really see this a a positive/positive affliction.
i'm clean=i feel good:)

therefore, i embrace my obsessive compulsive hygiene disorder. i am totally ok with it and even like calling it mine:P


on the contrary, i have a very 'bad seed' sister-ocd.

i am obsessed with my weight; i am obsessed with food. though i want to eat only what i need to to maintain a healthy weight, i am a very compulsive eater!!! furthermore, not only is half of my obsession food, my compulsion is FOOD also.
i love the stuff!!!

and, lately, i cannot get enough of it:/

thus, i'm having a hard time saying NO to food right now. it's a very bad habit i have started...
eating whatever the hell i want whenever the hell i want to eat it:(

obviously this is NOT an ocd i care to embrace:/

several years ago, i was in a bible study with an elderly man and his wife. he was talking about how he'd given up smoking years prior. then he said something that i have found to be true. he said,
"if you can give up a habit for 4 days,
you can kick it."

back to my title,
i want to go to a fat farm for 4 days!!!
(so, i can kick my habit, you know!!!)

love and God's blessings,
dani xx


Anonymous said...

Here's wanting to, with you. My bad habit is not exercising every day. I do things all day. Work around in the yard, do my laundry fix meals. But I guess that is not enough.
Blessings to you in your endeavor.

Heidi 'n' Jeff said...

I don't know what happened, but about a month ago something snapped in me and I am going through the same thing. Weight Watchers down the toilet. It's like I have no control again. :[

We'll go together. :)

Hannah said...

Oh, I know the feeling :/
Hopefully it will all subside without a trip to a fat farm (it sounds rather horrid!!) :D


dani said...

heidi, i was doing pretty well with ww until we went on spring break... i've nearly regained the 20 lbs i had lost:(

SuzanSayz said...

Poor, (but very clean) Dani. I really wish I could give you and Heidi a little bit of my dislike for almost ALL food.

Jan the crazy lady said...

Your beautiful inside and out Dani. I hope you know that.

Sally said...

Oh, I would love to go to the farm; do they give massages there? :)

I know what you mean, though, Dani~my food compulsion usually kicks in about ten at night. Then, the next morning I can't remember what I ate!! :)

Amanda said...

I'll go to fat farm with you ~ if you don't mind! I have a long standing love affair with food. Any type of food! So i know exactly how you feel :-)

Amanda x

Tabitha said...

I know that I read somewhere that when you do something a certain amount of times, (I have no idea how many times it is ha ha !!) ~ then it becomes a habit!!! How you then reverse that ......I have no idea!! All I know dear friend is that weight loss is hard ~ I have been there ~ still am there and it is an on going battle ~ one that I have won for now ~ but I am sure that I will fight another war with my weight in the future!!
For what it is worth ~ I think that you are totally gorgeous and I love that picture of you ~ you look just perfect!
Take care dear friend ~ sending lots of love and the biggest hug ever ~ Tab XXXX

PS ~ received a gift from you today ~ have no idea what it is and am going to keep it for my birthday ~ Thank you soooo much XX

Christy said...

I completely understand. I have been stuffing my face with crap too. I just can't seem to get my eating under control.

MoziEsmé said...

I hear ya! If I could just get jumpstarted and OCD about NOT eating, I'll be really good and lose lots of weight. I just have trouble getting started. And quite frankly, I don't want to calorie-count forever. I wish I could figure this thing out.